This is the question I continually find myself asking. The last three weeks have been so busy that I haven't had time to figure out the answer to this perplexing question. Sure, I remember that I was working full-time, taking care of a sick dog, waiting for a child to find us, traveling and reading for pleasure whenever I could. What else did I do? These things all seem like they happened a very long time ago which I think means I am finally adjusting to my new lifestyle.
Being a Mom is a labor of love. It is one of the most demanding jobs that I have ever had. It's 24/7 and 365 days of the year. I'm not just a Daughter, Wife and Aunt anymore--I am a Mom and I wouldn't trade my new job for anything despite the exhausting requirements.
Our daughter is my top priority. When she cries, I want to cry with her. When she smiles, I can't help but smile with her. She has been assigned to my husband and I by God. There's no other explanation for how this child came to be in our lives and hearts !
When we were in the waiting period, I always thought that this adoption would never happen. It was taking too long, we had been hurt and were spending more and more money each month. I have to say that what everyone told me was true. I was told that the "right" baby would make its way to us and she has. This is very difficult to see when you are in the midst of the waiting period, when a potential adoption plan falls through or when everyone around you has children and/or new babies. God's plans are always greater than our own.
The reason I was never able to have biological children is now in our home. All 6 pounds and 5.5 ounces of her. It was meant to be that I become her Mother. I hope that I can give her all the answers that she needs.